It is hell for me.

You know what is instant karma? 

"...beg them for forgiveness."

"So, have you begged for forgiveness?"

"No. I did not, I could not, so I live every single day with guilt and pain, while having them by my side."

"I still live in regrets to this day."

"Did your life of regret feel like hell?"

"No. The fact that I cannot beg for his forgiveness, and that I cannot be forgiven, that has been my biggest hell."

 

I did not beg for your forgiveness. I cannot beg for your forgiveness. I cannot be forgiven. 

I live in hell everyday. 

Now this is my instant karma.